NONCE WARS HOLLAND

Everyone please listen to this!!!! its the only time I’ve heard the full truth spoken about

Hi Ben,
 
I have just listened in full to that interview you did exposing satanic abuse, it actually made me cry at first, not because I was upset but because I was so fucking glad and happy to hear someone acknowledging that this shit actually goes on. I have spent the last few years trying to tell people but people are not really interested because it hasn’t happened to them so they can’t understand it nor want to hear the horrific details either as they can’t cope with hearing it. You are the first person I’ve heard even talk about this shit that has affected my life, and are the only other person I know fighting this shit or affected by it, I no longer feel alone in the fight. First can I say you are spot on about totally everything, right down the the twisted swing thing which they used to do to me too, spin me round so fucking much id be dizzy and couldn’t walk so Id be groped with hands everywhere afterwards in full public in the park near the railway station at the back, even got a photo of me on that swing before they did it. 
 
Also with the toys come alive at night thing too, I never had dolls really just stuffed toys so they would be spread around my bed and Id be told they would come alive at night, and also when really young had rupert bear wallpaper and the character raggety used to scare me and that was right near me at night on the wall so they would tell me raggety would come alive at night and start dancing and get me if I was naughty and wouldn’t do as it told me, yes I remember being touched up in my bed and remember staring at raggety on the wall as if that character was the one doing it as I wouldn’t look at who it actually was. I had an elephant and rabbit sort of pyjama case and aged 7 they told me the elephant would wink at me at night and he was protecting me and I was made to love this bloody elephant as if it was a real person and wouldn’t part with it ect even in my teens I had it, got a pic with me and that too. 
 
The monkey thing freaked me out a bit like I said my mother had an adult and baby monkey and got a pic she took of my son with his legs wide open with the monkeys on a chair, never really understood why she had those monkeys and thought it was just odd and weird, now I know!. My daughter just had a go at me for putting it on facebook so Ive taken it down but at least I know now. Ive put the pic on facebook of me traumatised and scared in 1976 after she used trauma based mind control on me to wipe my memories of an event and replace them with new ones, yeah she took off a fingernail and I screamed the house down and poked cocktail sticks into a wound in my knee that was already there and made me sit in a deckchair for about 4/5hrs without getting up as some sort of control while she tortured me and changed my memories. The reason for her wanting to change my memories of an event were so I didn’t grass on her as she would end up in prison she said back then, she said the courts would take me away and I’d never see her again. I used to be constantly threatened with the fact id be taken away to a farm and nobody would ever see me again if i didn’t behave and be a good girl. Id be rewarded with silver paper cut outs of 5 pointed stars on my floor if id been compliant with abuse and been a good girl, silver stars meant id been good but gold stars meant id been excellent so of course i gritted my teeth to try and get the gold stars and suffer more abuse. I also used to draw pentagrams in my enid blighton books at the front if that was the story id been read that night when abuse happened. So i didnt try and escape from the bed they used to tie my right wrist to the bed frame as the side so I couldnt wriggle away, that went on for a while and at times id be confined to my bedroom and not even allowed out and she put newspaper on the floor for me to pee on after id been called a bitch for kicking or scratching or so on to fight off abuse, you act like a bitch so ill treat you like one she said, a bitch being a female dog so I peed on newspaper like a dog being trained. Bastards!!
 
Mentally I’m totally fine and just really stronger for all this shit, its made me a different person and I can talk about everything without anything bothering me anymore, nothing upsets me, the bastards will not win over me. Yes my mother turned me into a slapper at a young age too, aged 10 I had a cb radio and she encouraged me to get as many young boys round as I could once, 15 young boys turned up once it was mental, we called it an eyeball, my mother was out at the time then she came back and told me to leave the room and I left her with 15 young boys for what seemed like ages, god knows what was going on in there or what she said, one of them is a friend of a friend on facebook so I might ask him. She also tried to rape neil once when she came round and I was out, she invited him in and she was with her friend jenny and they tried pulling his trousers down wanting to look at his cock but he did a runner and told me about it later but didnt’ see it as serious back then, just oh its my mother being silly and having a laugh as usual when in fact no she would have raped him at 15. 
 
When in my early teens she got me on the pill aged 13 and told me to go and have as much sex as I wanted!! Didn’t object to me bringing boys into my room and even sneaking them in at like 11pm while she was in the living room, I was used to her having her parties where Id have to stop men from coming into my room at night by putting objects in front of the door and id have to step over naked men in the morning while I was getting my breakfast before school too trying not to be grossed out looking at their floppy cocks.
 
Got too old for her to mess with by the age of about 11 so she started to try and sexualise me by showing me porn films on her cine camera then asking me if I was getting tingly feelings in my crotch, basically asking me if I was getting turned on, still never really saw it as bad as id seen porn mags round the house since being about 4. She once made me aged 12 dress up in bits of fluff on my nipples and a little fluffy pussy warmer it was called and surprise this man called graham and jump out on him dressed like that as a joke, she said he liked children and he would be really embarrassed and it would be funny so I did it, because id been conditioned that sort of thing was funny when in fact its not at all and I wouldn’t have dreamed of doing that to my daughter. I was certainly groomed from birth and conditioned to be a certain way and to behave in a certain way and of course boys took advantage of that when I was a teen. I can look back now and see so much and understand alot and see the true horror of my childhood. Sick things are not funny they are just sick!!
 
Anyway Ive gone on enough, just wanted to tell you how grateful I am for you putting that shit out there, and tell you a bit more, thank you so much for getting the truth out!
 
 
 Everyone please listen to this!!!! its the only time I’ve heard the full truth spoken about
 

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